This little domain on the internet is like my personal fashion diary- the detailed documentation of my fashion evolution: what I'm obsessing over, the trends to look forward to, entire lookbooks focused on one simple idea. I am in love with fashion, there's no doubt about that. But as for blogging, I found myself feeling like it was a chore rather than a hobby.
Oh I need new content, my followers are bored, I need a theme on Instagram or people won't follow me, I need to schedule a photoshoot for next week, I need to send emails, get back in touch with that one company, be active on twitter and facebook and Instagram, wait, did I ever publish that one post? NO! The entire document is gone!
I know, I sound ridiculous and that whole sentence probably gave you some anxiety. I don't want this to sound like a cry for attention, by no means should blogging of all things be something to pity! But in that two months, I realized I lost the reason why I started blogging in the first place: I lost myself-trying to be some professional picture perfect blogger. And so if I was going to find myself and why I loved blogging, I would need a break. So for two months I've done some Instagram posts here and there, emailed my go-to companies, and stayed behind the scenes. I still feel the stress of it all. I still feel myself trying to fit in this perfect little blogger box so strangers will like the blog and follow me.
But tonight, I found myself exploring the blog of one of my friends Annabel. Just by looking through her most recent posts did I realize how much I am not being myself on here. She had free spirit beautiful photos for spring, a fun video of her and her friends in LA, a post about her home Australia and what she misses there... In just 10 minutes I felt like I really had this incite on who Annabel is! She was so open about who she is that I felt like we became best friends in just 10 minutes. That's amazing. That is blogging with love: being free and open to express who you are.
So, ever so slowly, I will be easing back into this whole shabang. And I'm going to change some things: there might not be as many photos, there might be an introduction of videos, I might talk a whole lot more on some super random topics... But nonetheless I am going to be me. I want you to feel loved here at Palm Trees and Taxis - to be the place you can go to at the end of the day. I want you to feel like if you saw me on the street you could come up to me as if you're an old friend.
So stick around a little longer, I hope you can really get to know me this year.
Sincerely, your friend, Claire